Frankly, my dear...

I don't give a damn! Rhett said to Scarlett... I need to think how to say that to you but...I can't think about that right now. If I do, I'll go crazy. I'll think about that tomorrow...and no, I don't think I will kiss you, although you need kissing, badly. That's what's wrong with you. You should be kissed...and often...and by someone who knows how...So If I kiss you and If I said I was madly in love with you, you'd know I was lying...

Gone with the wind...Always gets me...

Just for your personal amusement find out which character you are...http://www.quizilla.com/quizzes/714532/which-character-from-gone-with-the-wind-are-you


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Purple-blue...

It's been a long time since I write, weekend has been hectic. I've got some bad news and some issues have been bothering me since. I don't know really what's the big deal about leaving someone, why does it hurt so much, after a long time of getting over you, finally (yes! finally!) it seems like I don't need you any more, and the last words just to say "please leave" don't come easy. You've been part of my life, my dreams, my past, my present, my future?... I don't know, I don't want to, and at the same time I want to...The answer is easy friends have told me: Let the time pass by... You've told me: I think you've already left me... I have not left you, not at all... your essence flies with me, fills me in every breath… I’m seeing you today, I’m going to look for you, I know where you’ll be at which time… wait for me, cause a walk sometimes is just a walk doesn’t imply more and sometimes is just a way to ask you to wait for me…Would you?...

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Hush my darling hush...

So, this is it... time away from working has ended. Finally somebody want to use my talent and pay for it hahahaha... sinner!! hahaha no no no! not that "kind" of talent, though If any of you want to try... we can talk... later... hahaha... somebody told me (that you have a girlfriend that look like a boyfriend hahaha no no, not that kind of telling hahaha), seriously, somebody told me that when a woman gets divorced looses 85% of her brain and the other 15% if her dog dies...(this space is reserved for you to hit yourself if you are laughing hahaha)... I don't know all cases but know some true hahaha and know some others where the wife end sucking husband's brain and the brainless ends up being him (hahaha)...

I had so many things to say, all planned this morning while bathing (you will discover that most of my posts are planned while bathing hahahaha) now I'm just thinking what to do with my life, how to tell those things I need to say because not telling things is a way of lying... Well I told him that I love him, I didn't tell him that I love him, and how could I if he is not with me, if all we have is either by phone or not saying all the things we need and want (?) to say... I must do something, must care for him, must ask him to allow me to make him happy... I'm jello and think this time need to be creme brulee hahahaha...

As usual a song for you to read, not sure if these are the correct words but is just as much as I remember from listening to it a long LONG time ago..

You fill up my sences
like night in the forest
like the mountains in spring time
like a walk in the rain
like a storm in the desert
like a sleepy blue ocean
you fill up my sences
come fill me again
come let me love you
let me give my life to you
let me drown in your laughter
let me die in your arms
let me lay down beside you
let me always be with you
now let me love you
come love me again
let me give my life to you
come let me love you
come love me again

Perhaps tomorrow or later today I'll write all those things I want to write...

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I want to know...

I personally think that you sometimes feel unconfortable when we talk. I would love to understand why... Is iT fear? Do not fear... Is it caution? Do not fear... I'm not going anywhere without you...Maybe, just maybe one day we wont get confused... Do I love you? I don't know... Does sparks appear when you're close? I don't know... I want to know... All I want is to know... Do you love me? You said I fascinate you... Which part of me?... Hahaha this is the time when my friends call me ohhh-diosa!!! You may not know I may not understand but as The Partridge Family said and Hugh Grant quoted them: I think I love you...but what I love is the emotion when you call my name or laugh or your voice every morning, I love you but the ilusion of you... You may love but you don't know me (damned! quoting old songs again... mah! WTF!)

So here the I think I love lyrics for your amusement:

I think I love you
So what am I so afraid of?
I'm afraid that I'm not suer of
A love there is no cure for
I think I love you
Isn't that what life is made of?
Though it worries me to say
I've never felt this way
Believe me
You really don't have to worry
I only want to make you happy
And if you say hey! Go away!
I will... But I think better still
I ought to say around and love you
Do you think I have a case?
Let me ask you to your face:
Do you think you love me?
I think I love you!

So, It has just occured to me that for sure this is not for you...This is a demonstration of how selfish I can be. If I want you to let me love you it's just because I want you to love me back, to make me feel greatness is close to me is available, with just one word, just one look, just one kiss, just the touch of your nose against my forehead, just... just... to love me back.

Anyway (and not just any) this is the song in my ipod while I write these lines; by My Favourite Souvenir (sorry Lwbt I know you can't stand his voice so I'm just attaching the lyrics hahaha just read them I don't promise I wont make you listen to it hahaha, for the time being just read them!)

Song:El porque de tus silencios
Author: Enrique Bunbury
Disc: Hellville De Luxe
Year: 2008

El porqué de tus silencios ¿Qué quieres ocultar? ¿El porqué de tanto tiempo sin hablar? Dios te libre de inventar, de mentir o de callar cuando cantas.

Como un pájaro indefenso bajo la tempestad aún encuentras fundamentos en la ruina cruel de tu memoria, al recordar el porqué de tus silencios y las huellas de tus pies de la arena frente al mar borradas por el vaivén de las aguas. El fin es el comienzo, ya nadie te espera, no sabes si sales o si entras.

Son asuntos de familia que no se pueden tratar, la gente no cambia los genes no engañan y tus flechas nunca dan en el centro del blanco de la diana y las huellas de tus pies en la arena frente al mar borradas por el vaivén de las aguas. El fin es el comienzo, ya nadie te espera, no sabes si sales o si entras.

Qué difícil es poner todos lo días un poco de luz en tus venas y las huellas de tus pies en la arena frente al mar borradas por el vaivén de las aguas. El fin es el comienzo, ya nadie te espera, no sabes si sales o si entras.


I'll wait

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