La Desdichada Elvira...

October 6th, 2007: My best friend was getting married next week (oct 13th) so, him, his wife-to-be, some friends and I, decided to go to "El Sapo Cancionero" to throw them a Bachelor/Bachelorette party... Best time ever!, definitely had a great time with them. I was having a dark & low time and needed some serious tlc, since I was just single again, 5 days before that I left my ex (something I don't particularily want to talk about right now). I enjoyed so very much that time and delightful memories live in my head from that "time age". That was the day Erika and I became "girlfriends", hahaha, her husband is a bartender and works from thursday to saturday and I was single, everyone else that night went with their significant other and were hugging and kissing, at some point of the night we look at each other and hug to have that warm & fuzzy feeling that hugging someone gives...since that day and since we realized we hang around with a lot of couples and always were by ourselves, we started calling each other week-end-girlfriend...She is a great person and I have a lot of things to thank her, been with me through rough times and held my hand & defended me when I needed...for all those great things you've brought to my life thankyou very very much! I'm endlessly greatful!...All this story started because I found a video from that day, this is Luis G. Perez singing "La Desdichada Elvira" from Chava Flores, one of my favourite tangos...enjoy!

XXX XXL



Here the lyrics (as far as I understood from the video)

Tango "La desdichada Elvira"
Autor: Salvador "Chava" Flores

Tango que me hicistes mal
Pos por que te lo comites güey!
Murió de amor la desdichada Elvira
Como pudo haber muerto de fiebre pulmonar
Si allá voy
Se pelo de esta vida
Su corazón sangrante
Dejó de funcionar
Donde esta el corazón
Tenía la parte hinchada
Pues la flecha clavada
Salió por el pulmón
Porque Elvira murió
Murió por el amado
De corazón malvado
Que hace un año
La dejo
Callo como se cae cuando nos falta el piso
Por un tipo panzón, de paso cacarizo
Elvira señalo la foto del culpable
En la mano un sable y un pie sobre el cañón
Calló como se cae con los ojos al cielo
O sea callo pa'tras rebotando en el suelo
Se le hizo un chipotón
Y no se lo sobamos
Y que apuros pasamos
pa'meterla en el cajón
Ay Elvirita! Por amor que bailo
Cómo se dice allá? macanuda? no verdad!
Che echarle un ojo, al fin tenes dos!
El día en que se murió la desdichada Elvira
En la última moqueada
Aún pudo murmurar
Adiós amor
La pata se me estira
Pero dejo otra suelta
Pa’venirte a espantar
El día que se murió
Dijeron los vecinos
Enséñenla otra vez
Nosotros no la vimos
Y en el último estirón
Toditos los mirones
Salimos a empujones
Ah! que susto nos metió!
Después llego un doctor
A echarle una mirada
Nomás cobro un cuentón
A ella ni le hizo nada
Allí certifico
Que se murió de pena
Sacó para la cena
Y el tipo se largo
Pague la inhumación
Con los pelos de puta
Nos se considero
Si puso la difunta
Pero Elvira murió
Murió por el amado
De corazón malvado
Que hace un año la dejo

Girl in the mirror...

I know I have not write in here for a long time...almost 2 months, many things have happened in my life lately and not all of them have made me happy.

I quit my job, and now I'm looking for a new one, found some new friends, found some old friends, lost some old friends and reasure some friendships... X'mas was nice particularly because good friends called to say hello and my family was really happy and close those days...now I remember I have to deliver some gifts, ha! almost 2 months later 3 friends will recieve a Merry-late-X'mas-gift! hahaha. I hope they like their present...

Good things and bad things have happened and because I'm a lost cause case of an optimist I rather remember the good things...

HE has changed a lot and now its easier to (as LWBT said) invade him. I realized this morning that when I bought some underweare at Tops & Bottoms on sunday, must of my clothes are either blue or orange (mine and his favorite colors btw), I dreamt of him two nights ago and yesterday...it was nice, I still remember the sensation of his lips touching mines while he hold me by the waist and I touched his hair...yeah, yeah, I'm seeing yellow hearts around me right now! hahaha...

SHE confessed something that took me by surprise, not because I didn't know it, but because I wasn't expecting the confession, as the goddess I am, I can "read" people's feelings but I expected this issue to be part of my selfishness and not even in my wildest dreams hoped she would tell me. Honestly speaking is not the first time someone tells me that but is the first time I was about to try it for a while...I know this would have changed our lives dramatically and it is why I said no...She has made so many changes in her life lately and I'm not sure if she can go to where she wants to go by following this route. Strangely, I think this changes if they were done in my life, were small changes, but for her are like going to the other side of the world, she has changed lanes in this ride and I hope, she realizes soon that this visit to extremes is not what she wants or needs, middle ground would be better, because even if the average of a pendulum movement is the middle, reaching extremes can be exhausting, I know this from experience, middle ground is always reasuring...Good luck! Is all I can wish to her, I know exhausting times come soon because I feel responsible for her life and well-being...I don't know if this is the right road but I will be after her with my toolbox in my hand ready to be used...

I started my master and I have to solve some excercises for today's class. I'm taking 2 courses, Accounting and Statistics...definitely I HATE Accounting and LOVE Statistics (pendulum movement again :P) I realized that my heart-involved people are accountants, (my mom used to say that God creates them and I find them) I'm watching the lines in my hand and remember a friend told me that 3 people that would like to be with me (romantically) talk about me among them but none of them know they are talking about the same person (me)...Strange isn't it? Mainly because I don't want to choose between them and strangely I have already chosen... Mah! life will bring great things...

All I can say as a resume of this 2 months is that I know great thing will come, and by great I do not necesarily mean happy things, and I'm eager to live them!

XXX XXL