Girl in the mirror...

I know I have not write in here for a long time...almost 2 months, many things have happened in my life lately and not all of them have made me happy.

I quit my job, and now I'm looking for a new one, found some new friends, found some old friends, lost some old friends and reasure some friendships... X'mas was nice particularly because good friends called to say hello and my family was really happy and close those days...now I remember I have to deliver some gifts, ha! almost 2 months later 3 friends will recieve a Merry-late-X'mas-gift! hahaha. I hope they like their present...

Good things and bad things have happened and because I'm a lost cause case of an optimist I rather remember the good things...

HE has changed a lot and now its easier to (as LWBT said) invade him. I realized this morning that when I bought some underweare at Tops & Bottoms on sunday, must of my clothes are either blue or orange (mine and his favorite colors btw), I dreamt of him two nights ago and yesterday...it was nice, I still remember the sensation of his lips touching mines while he hold me by the waist and I touched his hair...yeah, yeah, I'm seeing yellow hearts around me right now! hahaha...

SHE confessed something that took me by surprise, not because I didn't know it, but because I wasn't expecting the confession, as the goddess I am, I can "read" people's feelings but I expected this issue to be part of my selfishness and not even in my wildest dreams hoped she would tell me. Honestly speaking is not the first time someone tells me that but is the first time I was about to try it for a while...I know this would have changed our lives dramatically and it is why I said no...She has made so many changes in her life lately and I'm not sure if she can go to where she wants to go by following this route. Strangely, I think this changes if they were done in my life, were small changes, but for her are like going to the other side of the world, she has changed lanes in this ride and I hope, she realizes soon that this visit to extremes is not what she wants or needs, middle ground would be better, because even if the average of a pendulum movement is the middle, reaching extremes can be exhausting, I know this from experience, middle ground is always reasuring...Good luck! Is all I can wish to her, I know exhausting times come soon because I feel responsible for her life and well-being...I don't know if this is the right road but I will be after her with my toolbox in my hand ready to be used...

I started my master and I have to solve some excercises for today's class. I'm taking 2 courses, Accounting and Statistics...definitely I HATE Accounting and LOVE Statistics (pendulum movement again :P) I realized that my heart-involved people are accountants, (my mom used to say that God creates them and I find them) I'm watching the lines in my hand and remember a friend told me that 3 people that would like to be with me (romantically) talk about me among them but none of them know they are talking about the same person (me)...Strange isn't it? Mainly because I don't want to choose between them and strangely I have already chosen... Mah! life will bring great things...

All I can say as a resume of this 2 months is that I know great thing will come, and by great I do not necesarily mean happy things, and I'm eager to live them!

XXX XXL